When you don’t pick up my call.

808dilly:

  1. I think you are mad at me.
  2. I think your phone is on silent or in your bag.
  3. I think you don’t want to talk to me.
  4. I think you are talking to someone better.

if not #2 , #4

What Do You Do …

what do you do when everything you thought would never happen to you starts happening . 

my parents are getting a divorce - the started arguing once i lost my license. they don’t talk to each other hell they don’t even sleep in the same room or on the same floor. my dad blames me and my grandpa for not being able to live his dream. my mom thinks he is a selfish bastard. all i know is that im tired of wondering what is going to happen . i cry too much and worry too much. this is the time in my life where nothing should matter and i should be happy but i am not anywhere close to happy.

graduation- im not graduating and i’m not going to go into detail about it.

gpa- i don’t qualify for hope anymore . my parents don’t know yet …

license- oh and to top it all off i have my license suspended for six months OCTOBER 19 . 

SUMMARY - I feel like the biggest let down of a daughter. i feel ashamed that they even claim me, i sure as hell wouldn’t claim me. Having to tell my whole family im not graduating because i’m a dumb ass. then having to ask my mom for 600 dollars for summer school just so i can go to college on time. i can’t remember the last time i cried so much . i literally have cried for at least 3 hours out of every day . its physically draining. there is more i could say but the worst of it all im going to keep to myself . this is the not so bad stuff .